Fighting The Flab

Hello one and all. Sorry for the delay in posting here, it is for no other reason than the fact that I have had a slight relapse? lets be fair a total collapse..... So how, why and what happened? these are questions I am still asking myself, and I am trying to work through them.

Firstly, the training slipped as I picked up a back injury, hopefully nothing too serious although it has now been nearly a fortnight and it still hurts enough to stop me running and doing martial arts, and keeps me out fo the pool for a fair amount of time as well.

Secondly, the frustration of not training and the build up of resentment towards my body for getting injured, led to hightened stress levels and me reaching for a pack of 20 cigarettes, which then led to another pack and another.... so from not smoking for 4 months to smoking 5-15 a day depending on what I was doing.

Thirdly, I got annoyed at myself for smoking and started eating, at first not a lot, the odd chocolate bar, this rapidly led to eating chocolate everyday (this was so quick and sudden I still struggle to think about it).

Lastly the days I could train, the little I had smoked made my training slow, sluggish and hurt, which led to frustration and more cigarettes/chocolate.

So, where am I now? Well I have climbed back up to 21 stone in an amazingly short amount of time. So I feel bad about that, very bad. However, looking at it in a posititve light, I satrted at 32stone 4lb, so I still have lost 11stone 4lbs. Which is AMAZING!!!!!!!!

So what now to get me back on track? I know I can lose weight, so there is not that challenge anymore, I still cant fit into my Ted Baker shirts so there is an incentive. I felt better about myself when I was on the diet, so another incentive. I want to fight at semi pro level, so yet again another incentive.... What really motivates me to lose weight? Well 2 things really both quite shallow;
1) Vanity, I am gorgeous, but I could be better. I want people to look and say wow theres a fit bloke, not look and say yeah he is ok, bit heavy like (which is an improvement over a year a go where people would look and say wow he is FAT!)
2) Monetary gain, I still strongly believe that jobs and employees are fattest, especially now with insurance companies putting pressure on employers to maintain the health of there staff and increasing premiums for people that are overweight, and with the government increasing pressure on employers to look after the health of there staff. Both of which have a knock on effect to people suffering with obesity. It would be interesting to see if there is a study relating to earnings and BMI and unemployment and BMI, I would bet there is a correlation between the two.
So there is my motivation, both shallow admitedly, but are they? Think about it honestly for a moment, both have a massive imapct on quality of life and lifestyle, as stated earlier this is a lifestyle change, not a diet. I seemed to have lost focus on what it is I wanted to acheive and the reasons behind it. This week I am going to try and walk some more and maybe, maybe if the back is up for it run a bit more. I am going to see my Dr and try and stop smoking again. Also I am going to make a concerted effort to eat off the diet plate again and stop eating chocolate.


Start at Xmas 2006 32 stone 4 lbs.
Lowest weight 19 stone 12lbs
Weight now 21 stone.

LETS GET IT GOING!!!!!

Me at heaviest

Me Now